Completing A jigsaw puzzle

If you do jigsaw puzzles you certainly experienced the fear of being almost finished and realise you actualy don't have all the pieces, some went missing while you had to transfer the puzzle 100 times around the house because it was getting bigger and bigger... or maybe it's just me, I should have counted the pieces before I ever started to do the puzzle... but puzzles are like that, it's a progression... it's like building a house or a town... it takes time and it can be very difficult do do skies... or forests...

But other puzzles are that aren't the traditional ones, they are episodes of life. Some may call them circles but for me it's more like making a jigsaw puzzle. Once it's finished and you can see the image clear... AAAAAH! *SIGH* WHAT A FEELING!



If 12 years ago I would have dreamt that one day someone was going to create a thing called DVD with all the videos from a band, live shows, interviews, my teenage years would have been problably much more relaxed, not as exciting though and i would probably be a dentist now!

When OK COMPUTER came out I couldn't afford it. I still haven't got an original of ok computer because i think it was yet not meant to be... so, i couldn't afford to buy the album therefore i was collecting all the footage i could get from all the channels on my satelite. I have on tape the premiere of paranoid android's video on MTV (it was in a program called MTV HOT), paranoid android performed on jools holland (this one above!), all the first footage from the Barcelona gigs

PAUSE: OK COMPUTER WAS FIRST PLAYED FOR 4 NIGHT IN A ROW IN LISBON AND OPORTO. thank you very much!

PLAY:

Then one night, me and my sister were home alone and we had the chance to check all the channels we couldnt when mum was home at night... we caught radiohead on jay leno but i only got it half way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I knew it was going to repet the next day so i wasnt so woried... but it didnt! mum didn't pay the satelite bill and the next day there was no tv. NOTHING! NO TV!my only source of new music was dead.finito!

but like i said in the beggining of my testimonial, if I knew that almost 12 years later you tube would exist with EVERYTHING I WOULDNT HAVE CRIED AS MANY TEARS... but i guess that's how life goes

I WONDER in 12 years what will be so easy that i find now so difficult to find... Love?

Birthday bunch

Seems like it´s everyone´s birthday this week! Well that, or i only like people who were born from the 8th to the 11th of september...

So HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

TÓ - 8th September

XANA - 10th September

TONY+ EMMA TORRINGTON - 11TH SEPTEMBER

xxxxxx

Um post para as minhas amigas!

Ola To, Ola Xana, Ola Celia.

Este e o primeiro post em portugues.

Alguns amigos meus ingleses leem o blog mas como nunca poe comentarios eu resolvi fazer um post dedicado a voces, as minhas "clientes" aqui do tasco!

Aqui vai uma musiquita pra voz meceses...

(This post is dedicated to my friends To, Xana and Celia. For translation go to google translation... i'm very exclusive today. this is my code, my language, learn it and you will be closer to me)

Ora tomem!

Perhaps, perhaps perhaps

You won't admite you love me, and so, how am I ever, to know, you only answer...perhaps...perhaps...perhaps...



IF YOU CAN'T MAKE YOUR MIND UP, WE'LL NEVER GET STARTED!

To Hobbes Survivour 1996-2008

We were packing for another summer holiday when Osiris, my cat-soulmate gave me the look "they are coming". Seemed as though she was hurrying to have her kittens before we left for holidays. Usually i would help her with labour but we were in a hurry to leave, so i left her there giving her one last kiss in her swallon tummy.

She had 5 beautiful kittens but only one survived.
And for his well being she aet the other 4.

We came back a week later and i carried religiously the new single from my favourite band that summer, ash, angel interceptor.
We named our lovely new born Hobbes Survivour".

Last night he gave his soul to the saviour.

We will miss you. Your sweetness and strong character.

xx

Top5

I wondered this morning, in a little chalenge to myself, which would be my favourite songs ever...
In no particular order:

-California Dreaming by Mamas and Papas
-My Girl - The Temptations
-House of the Rising Sun - The Animals
-Imagine - John Lennon
-Alone in Kioto - Air

It's strange but all this songs are old (appart from air's) and they all remind me of home...

None of them have official videos... hm...

You have seen it, now do it yourself

I was reading someone's blog recently about how the girl in question didn't know what to do of her career. To me it all seemed like someone who was too scared to try and do actualy what she loves. In her mind she would love to be a designer but she's to scared so she buys lots of pieces from others... and to think she could be doing them herself...

Me, I also look at what others do and think " I will never be able to do it". As a young sound designer i listen to what others do and think " no. never". somehow humans have this negativity incorporated in their system. But i found the key. We need to unlock it!

For many years I did my own things but have always been too scared to show them to others. It's a little fear of rejection, but if i never show them then no one will see them, and then will never be able to get better... because... we work for the others. we want to receive payments that's for ourselves and to survive, but we do work for others so... keep your eyes and ears opened.

Yesterday, finally installed in a much deserved new huge bedroom my studio.I am now officialy starting my little "dream factory". It's called TAKKFYRIR which means thank you in icelandic.

I a currently working in a little video shot by my sister which i will be posting tonight.
In the meantime check it out on www.myspace.com/raxy

I have watched milions of music videos, i have the superhuman capcity of remembering every single shot of each one of them.

When i moved to London, considering i could only bring one suitecase with my, i selected my favourite DVD ever, so I chose "Gorillaz demon days". I moved to london carrying hopes and dreams, and always looked at this dvd as "this is how it should be done"

This might sound spookey but needs to be told.

Last year, after being a runner for months and not seeing my situation in london in good roads, i thought "maybe i should go back", but on that same day someone rang the buzzer from work, and, believe it or not, it was Nigel Godrich... I think i told this story before. He was editing his program "From the Basement" and had a team of editors and a director who i only knew by DAVID.

So then i decided to stay.

From the basement was finished and they left, leaving me again in perspective.

Second atempt of going back and i bump into "DAVID" the director, who, very kindly, gives me his phone number.

a year later we meet up for a coffee and another, and another and another until i ask him what's his surname was.

Barnard.






Coincidence, faith, destiny, all that or maybe not, he directed "Demon Days" my favourite DVD, the only DVD i brought with me when i moved.

Does this message give you any strenght today? hope so. Here's a clip o David's work and go check my own, because from now on, I have seen it, now I'll be doing it myself!